Dear Body,

I’m sorry.
You tried to tell me
and I didn’t listen.

It’s complicated, I know.
I didn’t really understand.
I was doing the best I could.
But now I understand
a little better
and I’m so sorry.

I’m sorry for the times
you tried to speak up
and I wouldn’t let you.
I’m sorry for the times
I didn’t believe you,
didn’t trust you—
I was so suspicious and afraid.
I’m sorry for the times
I pushed you out of the room
and slammed the door in your face.
I’m sorry for the times
I ignored your loud cries
until you finally gave up.
Completely.

It’s complicated, I know.
But now I’m finally learning
the sound of your voice,
finally learning to listen;
And you are stunningly beautiful! I love our fascinating
and quirky conversations.
(I especially love hearing you sing-
I didn’t even realise you could sing before!)

I know I’m still learning—
there’s still so many things
I don’t understand,
so. many. questions.
But thank you
for never giving up on me
(even when I gave up on you).
Thank you for the ways
you fiercely protect
and care for me.
I love doing life with you.
I appreciate you.
I love you.